Seeking Happiness

I enjoyed watching this video –  The Happy Secret to Better Work.  Watch it if you can.  I’ll wait.

I’ve been adapting my life over the years to help me become a better and happier person in my personal life and at work. (I actually don’t like separating work and life into separate categories because I believe they should work in harmony – not one or the other. But that’s another story).

I find the above video explains very well what I’m trying to do in addition to giving me some tips to continually improve whatever it is I’m trying to do.

Success Through Happiness

The underlying principal is that the majority of us are trying to find happiness through success. However, we should be finding success through happiness. We need to flip things around.

So it might be:

  • Do things that will make us happy.
  • Exercise to keep our bodies sharp.
  • Eat well.
  • Do work that is engaging.
  • Spending quality time with friends and family.

Through this we will become happy and successful on our own terms (not the terms that society dictates)

Instead of:

  • Working hard in the hope at some point we will achieve the success.
  • Not eating well.
  • Not exercising.
  • Making sacrifices that we hope will pay off at some point.
  • And then hope that we’ll be happy.

As a society we think that happiness will come with success, but in our hearts I think many of us know that is not true. You only need to look at the lives of many ‘successful’ people and see that they aren’t really happy and many are actually very unhealthy and miserable.

I personally don’t want to succeed  if the sacrifice is my health.  That’s failure in my eyes.

How Am I Finding Success?

Of course it’s through happiness, one by one I’m doing things that make me feel good.

  • I exercise daily (most of the time)
  • I eat well (most of the time)
  • I spend lots of time with my family
  • I work hard, under my terms
  • I am creating a business that I feel happy with (it’s taken a while, but I seem to be getting there).
  • I feel my confidence and happiness in my work is reflecting in my steady and consistent growth.

Things I’d like to be doing (helpful points from the video):

  • showing more gratitude
  • journalling / blogging
  • doing more random acts of kindess
  • meditating, just a little bit 🙂

Everything I do are small changes and efforts where that genuinely make me feel positive as a person.  There haven’t been many drastic changes in my life…each one of them have been one thing at a time.  Looking back – my life has actually changed quite a lot.  I can see it working and hopefully with conscious efforts I will continue along this very interesting and challenging task in life!

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Are We Setting Up Our Kids For Failure?

Well, my husband blogged about optimising for happiness, so I thought I’d keep up with him with these few words on a similar kind of subject. 🙂

I’ve often thought about the high expectations that parents and society have on kids.

Stuff like:

  • getting the best grades
  • getting a degree
  • getting a proper and well paying job
  • deciding on a defined career from an early age
  • buying a house

It kind of perplexes me a bit these days.  If people don’t achieve what they have set out to achieve then they feel like a failure.  I know I did for quite a while.

I wanted that degree. I wanted an important job.  The hurdles that I came across felt like I was destined to fail constantly.

  • I failed to love the academic world.
  • I failed to love the corporate world.
  • I failed to love the routine of working life.
  • I failed (for a while) to find my place in where I wanted to be.
  • I failed (for a while) to find that happiness that I was after.

In hindsight, I haven’t failed. Or I have, but I just call failures an ‘educational opportunity’.  However, I think I would have given myself an easier time if expectations of me (from myself, family and society) had just been a bit different.

Instead of setting goals for these ‘things’ (grades, degrees, etc) we should be setting goals for personal happiness and health.  There are too many of us out there who are just not happy with what we are doing with our lives.  We’ve been taught to strive for better things, but really we need to be striving for happiness and health.

Just imagine what we would all be doing if we all had a focused goal of being happy and healthy. Imagine how different the world would be today.

I’m working towards being happy and healthy, consistently.  It’s a good place to be.

Our Workliday – California 2013

Part of why I love unschooling and working for myself is that we can define the rules.  We recently spent 5 weeks travelling California. It was awesome.

I met some people, some that I’ve been in contact with for years and never met.

After so many years I met @testertested #starwest It's me and @qualityfrog #starwest

It's me an @jbtestpilot #starwest It's me and @sbarber #starwest

It's me and @griff0jones #starwest It's me and @paulholland_TWN #starwest

Nice to meet John Dunham of #Saucelabs today :)

I met Hilary and Stacy who have been volunteering at Software Testing Club.

It's me and @g33klady #starwest It's @stacycbusek and I #starwest

I went to my first American testing conference (StarWEST).

What executives value in testing

I helped get a Meetup in San Francisco started (and met lots of cool people!)

#muchlatergram San Francisco Testing Meetup with Michael Larsen #muchlatergram San Francisco Testing Meetup with Josh Meier

#muchlatergram San Francisco Testing Meetup, Fred @rainforestqa #muchlatergram San Francisco Testing Meetup

I went to a meetup at TwitterHQ! 🙂

I went to TwitterHQ :) I'm such a geek :)

I did work when kids allowed (this was kind of hard, but possible).

Worklidaying in Santa Cruz

My husband went to a Startup conference, some meetups and a few coworking spaces.

[Sorry, no photos] 🙂

We did this whilst doing things like going to DisneyLand, the beach (oh, Malibu and Santa Monica, we miss you!) and hanging out in San Francisco.
Graham and I at Zuma Beach, Malibu :) Walking in a line

California California

Stealing a ve' nice moment Ben's Trike Hire

We cycled across that #goldengate Ben drinks from a toilet #exploratorium

It's The Super Sherrys Aaron played Doodle Jump and hit the jackpot.  He was very pleased!

I’m really grateful that we can do these kind of things. It’s inspiring, eye opening, interesting and educational. And it’s expensive, ouch!

5 weeks on the road becomes hard work with little ones (specifically my 2 year old).  An 11 hour flight is not exactly relaxing either, especially when the little dude won’t site still or sleep! We are all happy to be back in our comfy own home now!

Hopefully we can do more in the future!  Sometimes we just need an excuse! #hint

And to end things of – it was ve’nice 🙂

It's a nice place :)

The Business of Profit

I’ve long battled little people talking in my head.  Trying to figure out the world, how things are and how they could be.  Some things I’ll never get – like the idea that profit is what drives a business.

I think we’ve lost our way

Businesses are classed as not-for-profit or for profit. So Limited companies in the UK are for profit. Charities are not for profit, social enterprises can have profit with clauses within them to re-invest money into the business and there is also the need to have a socially driven mission.

So the first thing that you need to do when you start a business is decide whether you are in it for profit or for good.  Is it only me who feels this is wrong?

I want to run a company that is profitable and does good – for customers and the community around us. There is no ‘or’. There is only ‘and’.  Businesses by default should be doing both.

I’ve set my company up as a limited company because it gives me the freedom to decide and choose how we do things.  I dread the slowness of decision making and paperwork involved with a charity or social enterprise. I answer to myself, my customers and my desire to run a meaningful business. I aim to make a profit because this is what will make us sustainable (and have some growth).  With sustainability comes the ability to invest comfortably in the business and ‘other things we believe in’.  Sustainability and profit can free us from basic worries (paying the rent and buying food) and empower us to be free to work on more meaningful projects.

What questions should we ask when in business?

Why is meaningful business not the norm? Why shouldn’t everyone who sets out to start a business aim to do good as part of who and what their business is? Why is it not part of a business plan? Imagine if different questions were asked when you were setting up a business, would it make people do things differently?

  • what values are important?
  • what would make you happy?
  • what would make your employees and your community happy?
  • how do you plan to achieve sustainability?
  • how will you grow your business ethically?
  • at what point can you invest money into other causes?
  • how will you grow a business without detrimental consequences to your (and your employees) health?
  • how do you want to achieve change?

JustGiving – a great living example

I was at Meaning Conference last week where Anne-Marie , the founder, was giving a talk about her experiences. I hadn’t looked into the set up of Just Giving as a business, but I was pleasantly surprised to hear that it is set up as a for profit (limited company) with investors too.  Investors who are yet to see return on their investment.  A key driver for JustGiving to being a Ltd company was the ability to reinvest money into the business without complications.  (I think the video will be available online on the Meaning Conference website soon).

Why aren’t more technology heavy companies out there aiming to do good?  Why is there such a focus on growing fast and selling out quickly?

The people behind JustGiving are clearly determined to create a viable and sustainable business that does good, will reward their investors down the line and have (hopefully) proven that this can be done without being a non-profit.  An truly awesome example of good business.

Profit should not drive business

I think too many people see profit as a bad thing.  Big business is probably to blame for this as profit always seems to be their driving focus.  I’m not sure what it will take to change this, but I really think we should all embrace profit as a positive thing as long as the right things are done with the money made.

The Business of Caring

Lets get straight to business.

To succeed in business you need to show that you care.  Ok, ok, you don’t need to, but if you are in business for the right reasons (ie – it’s not all about the money) then you need to care AND if you show that you care then you have a better chance of succeeding.

Let me give you some examples of how you can show you can care to highlight my points of how you can show that you care.

You have a vision

You express this vision in more than just a mission statement. You live it. You breathe it. You try your damn hardest to create  your vision.  You surround yourself with people who believe and can help you achieve it. Your vision has everything to do with how you behave inside and out of your work.

There is something within you driving for a different world.  Perhaps it is to provide something better for those closest to you, but it probably goes deeper than that. You want change. You want to do something better. Something more meaningful.  Whatever it is, doing something different in a positive way shows that you care.

For me: My current vision is to provide the positive change that I believe is needed for the software testing world.  I am bootstrapping my way towards the change. I am building the right kind of relationships and friendships.  Decisions are often hard, but I try my best to keep them in line with my goals. I adapt and change as the community does too.  I have my ups and downs. My wins and fails.  But I keep pushing forward.  I have a (relatively) big vision, but for decision making I only tend to focus on the next 6-12 months.

You have been in the industry for a while

This means you know what you are talking about. You’ve been around long enough to perhaps prove that you like the industry you work in. You have studied your industry ongoing. You probably go that extra mile. You naturally want to learn more, constantly. You have gained trust with your community and peers for being genuine. You know when someone doesn’t know their stuff!

For me: I’ve been around testing for long enough to know what I’m talking about, understand the history of the industry and the people and have a good feeling of where I would like to take the software testing community next.  Being around long enough also means that I’ve developed relationships and have naturally proven that ‘I care’ to my network.  I’ve also put in significant effort into learning other skills to help me achieve what I want to (business, sales, marketing and web publishing).

You listen to people

You care what people say. You listen. You ponder. You take on board feedback. You respond. Appreciate and take action where appropriate. You change the rules if you can. You might collect what you hear formally or take a mental note of it. You let people know you are listening whether they are talking directly to you or not.

For me: I monitor the software testing world and community as closely as I can. I share stuff for the good of the community. I create things that I think are useful. I try my best to find a balance between the good of the community and being a business.  I get things wrong lots more than people realise (hindsight always proves to be the best learning lesson). I fix my mistakes if I can and keep trying and moving on.

You respond to people

Business is about people. If someone reaches out to you then you do your best to respond. They will probably always remember this. An email, a tweet, a photo or a blog post.  Whatever it is, you show you care by acknowledge the people that exist and their contribution that you value.

For me: I respond to tweets, emails and social media as best as I can. I respect people. I help them. I don’t automate my responses. There is no Rosie Robot here!

You try to make the right decisions

We all want to make the right decisions, but we are human and are prone to failure.  Also a right decision for one person can be a very wrong one for someone else. Ethos of honesty and openness will show you care.  The act of questioning what you are doing is built right into your daily life.

For me: There are the needs of the community, my business and myself to consider.  I think deeply about the needs of the community.  However, I also need to think about myself.  Once upon a time I put others before myself.  I think I’m quite a giving person.  But there comes a point where that can’t be the case. I believe that if I am personal happy, physically fit and financially stable then I will be in a much better position to make better decisions.

You want to do a good job over making the most money

All businesses sell something, but you are in it to in it to win  it for the long term (not short gain wins) whilst doing the best job possible. You have boundary. You have ethics. Crossing them can be deadly.

For me: If I want to achieve the change that I’m looking for then I need to say no to the norm. Which I often do. I won’t promote certain products. I won’t release content that is not in line with our ethos. I won’t spam the community. Etc.

You can say no

Saying no can be wonderful. It can give freedom. It provides clarity. You say yes to the things you care about, no to the things that distract and help you lose focus.  Saying no gives you the focus that you need to make you the best in your niche. You don’t need to be the best and win at everything.

For me: I’ve gotten better at saying no.  Sometimes for my own sanity.  Sometimes saying no means making the right decision (as mentioned above).  Often saying no means people don’t take advantage of me.

I care

I care and I try to show it. My business is growing and I love the work that I do.  That to me is a great start to a promising future.

Making A Difference

The following blog post inspired by this tweet.


I’ve had my ups and downs. In life, career and business. Haven’t we all?

When something gives you a hard knock it can be so hard to keep going.  Sometimes things just don’t work out. And it can hurt so much. The love and enthusiasm can be lost.  And it can be so easy to give up, run away and never come back. Especially when you’ve had a bad day, week, month or year.  And even more so (in relation to business) when not (enough) money is being made.

Sometimes it’s not that things go bad, but things just aren’t moving as fast or in quite the right direction as you would like. Sometimes you can be doing great things, but you get no or minimal feedback that you are.  This can make it hard to evaluate whether you are doing a ‘good job’ or not.

Sometimes you think you want something, but the reality isn’t really what  you want.

Sometimes you want something, go down a path and discover a whole new love for something else.

For me, whatever I’m doing, I want to shine a light on my world. I believe the things I’m doing are positive for the people around me. I believe I can make a positive impact. I can. I can. I can.

I always want to know if I am making a difference, to someone, somewhere.

How Do I Make A Difference?

Sometimes it is hard to know whether I make a difference because people don’t go out of their way to tell me, until there is a reason to.  Sure, I can measure things to a certain extent through data (e.g. web traffic, social media networks, people talking about us, etc), but it sure helps to see a story happen which may have something to do with the work that you do.

Here are some recent examples from my work:

  • I send out some free stickers: the result is not only thank you for the stickers, but thank you for the work that I am doing and how it has made a positive difference to individual testers.
  • I meet a tester at a meetup or conference: I don’t always know who they are, but they know me and they say thank you. They talk to me about stuff that shows they read what we produce over at Software Testing Club and Ministry of Testing, but perhaps just as interesting is that they follow other aspects of my life. My personal blog (what you are reading now). And my unschooling blog.  So in fact, I can see I am making a difference not only in the testing world, but my more personal efforts are being listened to too.
  • we publish something (often something that some awesome tester has written or helped us create): there are shares and retweets which is obviously nice.  Within this is an occasional and more thoughtful comment, blog post or email saying ‘thank you… I have some feedback/questions/ideas..’.

Sure, these are nice examples. But they don’t happen everyday (and this is not a plea for praise!)


Chasing For Feedback

On the other side is chasing for feedback. I know I need to get better at this.

I need to get better at this. It takes time and effort and is one of those things that often gets pushed to the back of the line when work and life take over.

Self Doubt Always Kicks In

I’m often full of self doubt.  Am I doing the right thing? What will people think about this? Do people actually care? Am I making the right kind of difference?

Feedback matters, no matter how big or small. It helps validate your life’s work. But perhaps more importantly is the internal satisfaction and happiness.  Are you working towards what you want? Are you making yourself happy?  Are you creating the right kind of difference that matters to you?

There is no point, in the name of ‘making a difference’, being miserable just to please everyone else.  At least in Rosie Land, there is no point 🙂

Decisions + Learning = Progress

I have this theory that the more decisions you make the progress happens.

I feel uncomfortable when I don’t make decisions.  I hate sitting on unresolved situations.  It makes me feel restless and uncomfortable.

When I make a decisions I feel almost automatically relieved and happy. It feels like I can move forward. I learn, no matter whether I succeed or fail. It feels like I’m going to get busy doing real and valuable stuff. I begin to understand the world around me more. I know I will make mistakes along the way. I know I will make the wrong decisions sometimes.  However, equally I will achieve successes along the way and quite often surprising and encouraging discoveries.

The worst thing for me is not doing anything. Not making that decision and being left not knowing or learning about what could have been.


There’s No Business Like Slow Business

Society is obsessed with ‘Quick’

We want a quick fix diet.

A quick route to being fit and healthy.

Fast (but good) food.

A well paying job, now. With big rewards in the near future.

That big house, now.

An overnight business success.

What about the process?

Why are we forgetting the value of the process?  It’s the journey that matters, yet we all just want to get to the end as quickly as possible – thinking that the end is successs and the success at the end is what will make us happy.

The process makes me happy, what about you?

The value of slow business

I think about the business I run a lot.  It would be unwise not to.

It’s been a slow journey.  6 years in the making, yet only the past 18 months has seen ‘good’ growth.

The business I run could not happen overnight.  It takes years to build a community and even more years and trials and errors to figure out how to turn it into a profitable business.

For me it’s not all about the profits, it’s also about enjoying what I do and maintaining a healthy work life balance.  It takes time and consistent ongoing effort to figure this stuff out.  Most people don’t stick with it, you’re many steps ahead if you can.  And even more steps ahead if you accept that you are willing to change at any point.

It’s slow business, but the best bit is that it is sustainable business.  My growth chart is a steady upwards curve, it’s not rapid, it’s steady.

I fail. I succeed. I fail. I succeed.  I do this all in small amounts.  Small is easy to cope with. Big success and failure is harder.

The flipside is fast business – which often bring in lots of pressure.  Hiring employees. Office space. Investors. Loans. Stress. All attempts at getting to the goal faster.

I like slow business, not everyone does.

The Consequence of Correct Answers

This video rings so true with me. I know one more than one occasion my son(s) have been scared to do or answer something for fear of getting it wrong.

How we question, request and say things is so important to the frame of mind someone is put in. I know I need to remind myself of this 🙂

What Executives Value In Testing / StarWEST / MindMap

I’m at StarWEST this week so thought I’d make the effort of taking some notes of some of the sessions/talks I’ve been attending.  I don’t have the stamina to do it for all of them, but here’s my mindmap and some relevant photos from Mike and Jeanette’s talk.  I was particularly interested in this one as I’ve always been keen to hear more about testing related to startups.

This is not a replacement for the talk and may not be entirely understood without context.  Just saying 🙂

Download the PDF / Download the text file.

What executives value in testing Michael Kelly Jeanette Thebeau


Abstract of the talk:

Professional testers and test managers are feeling the pressures of low-cost competition and tools that claim to replace them through automation. So, how can test teams add more value to their projects and organization? In a recent survey of executives and testers, Mike Kelly and Jeanette Thebeau found major disconnects between what executives and testers believe are most important to the business. They explore new insights into the risks and concerns executives perceive and what you should do differently. In the survey, most testers believed that finding ways to cut operational costs was a low priority test objective, but executives listed operational cost reduction as a high value testing activity. On the flip side, testers believed that regulatory compliance was a high priority, while most executives reported compliance testing was a low priority. Join Mike and Jeanette to find new ways to help ensure the products you test solve the business problem, meet customer needs, reduce operational costs, scale easily as demand increases, and are built to quickly add new features over time.